Giving Up

This momma gave up wine for Lent… right?! What was I thinking?

Lent runs this year from March 1st through to Good Friday, April 14th. For those unsure of what Lent is, it is a time to prepare our hearts and gives us an opportunity to pause and consider our path. Lent also gives us time to think and meditate on the sacrifices Jesus made for us.

Incase you didn’t read my profile…

“As we get to know each other, you will get a glimpse of my crazy and beautiful life! I am a child of God. I am blessed with four happy and healthy children. I am married to my lifelong best friend. I have a large support network of extended family and friends. Yet, at the end of the day, I struggle daily with the ups and downs of depression. I have moments of giving up. I want nothing more than to feel ‘normal’ – you my friends, who also struggle with this feeling, are not alone. Join me on my road to health, healing and happiness – and may you also receive these blessings as we travel together”.

Why wine you ask? 

Well, I am an alcoholic. Not in the form that I need to drink everyday (although, if there is wine in the house – I’m popping that cork) but when I do drink wine, I can not stop at one or two. I ‘must’ finish the bottle and possibly open a second. Not just because I absolutely love the taste and definitely not because I want to feel like crap the next day, but because I long for the numbness I feel after two glasses. This has been going on for years and wine has become my crutch to deal. You see, my road has had a number of turns and detours… Slap a mental illness on top of that and BAM, you’ve got a conundrum of battles that need to be faced on a daily basis.

There you have it. Lately journaling has been very therapeutic for me, so I thought sharing some of my blunders could be beneficial for my desired healing. I also pray that this may help others going through the same feelings or situations. God bless.